I Wanna Grow Up

As a child I came to know the ‘Sunday School God’ singing “Jesus loves me.” As an adult I still believe Jesus loves me, but does my LORD know I love Him?

One Word –

“For judgment I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and those who see may become blind.” John 9:39

Daily Bible Reading: Exodus 4, 5, 6; John 9; 10:1-21

Big Idea –

A popular song on Christian radio today is “I Wanna Go Back” by David Dunn. It talks about how it was so easy to believe in Jesus as a child, but “then I grew up, and then I got older, then my life got tough, and we grew apart.” Thus the title of the song “I wanna go back” to simpler days with childlike faith to sing “Jesus loves me” and “This little light of mine” (see lyrics).

No doubt life got harder as I grew older, but I don’t wanna go back. I wanna grow up.

Now don’t get me wrong; David’s song is a catchy little tune, and I suppose a case could be made that it echoes Jesus call to the church in Ephesus; “You have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. (Rev. 2:4-5).

But I don’t wanna go back to the faith I had in Jesus growing up. Yes, I knew Jesus loved me and even died for my sin. But early on I didn’t learn the reality of what it means for Jesus to truly be LORD, Yehovah. To call Jesus LORD is to recognize Him as your ultimate master, which requires daily obedience.

Now make the connection to the story of the man born blind in John 9 healed by Jesus. One who had never seen the faces of those who loved him, had never seen the beauty of a sunrise or brilliant blue sky, had not seen the stars sparkle at night, one who had lived his life in darkness has his eyes opened to see because he simply obeyed Jesus’ instructions to, “Go, wash in the pool of Siloam” (which means Sent) (v. 6). If he didn’t go where Jesus sent him to wash, then he would have remained in darkness.

Later after the seeing blind man had been questioned by the Pharisees about this miracle, only to be thrown out of the Synagogue, Jesus finds him. As Jesus make Himself known to this man He says, “For judgment I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and those who see may become blind” (v. 39).

The Pharisees who overheard Jesus, questioned if they were blind. Jesus told them that they would be innocent if they were blind, but because they claimed to see they were guilty. Put another way, if they had accepted Jesus and obeyed His teaching with ‘blind’ faith, then they would see. But instead they claimed to see clearly and refused to accept Jesus and His teaching; therefore they were blind.

And so I wanna grow up. I don’t want to just go back to the simplicity of my childhood ‘Sunday School God’ I knew as Jesus, but not mature in my faith so that I walk (or live) in complete obedience to His word. Jesus said, “No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God” (Lk. 9:62). I think that’s because if I’m turning to look back, I’m blind to where I’m supposed to be going and cannot continue to walk in obedience.

Those who had forsaken their first love, Jesus encouraged to repent and do the works they did at first. We are saved by faith, but having been given sight to see we continue in salvation (or are sanctified, set apart and made holy) by continued works of obedience.

I don’t wanna go back only to continue to stumble and fall in the same places, blind to the obedience Jesus requires. I want to see Jesus as He is and have eyes of faith to follow in His footsteps. I want Jesus to know my love by my ‘sightful’ obedience.

It’s not going to be a popular song on the radio, but I wanna grow up.

Exemplify –

I wanna grow up and walk in obedience to all that Jesus has commanded; I do not wot to claim to see yet remain blind.

Yes to Yield –

LORD Jesus, forgive me for my blindness and hardness of heart that causes me to stumble and fall in the same places without looking to You for help to truly see. How can I say, “I love You,” but not obey Your commandments? Holy Spirit touch my eyes so I can see, and empower me to walk in the same obedience as the blind man who was sent to Siloam. I wanna grow up and see clearly.


If you’re new to Living It Now, you can find an explanation of the O-B-E-Y journal on the Hearing and Doing page, or the sample post Guard Duty.

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